First I have my family problem. @.@
Now this problem has been brewing since my mom and uncle had a disagreement till now. With my grandparent conditions, my mom’s unwillingness well everything is in a big mess. Don’t really want to talk about family problem because it will cause unnecessary headache and heart ache.
Financial $ , $
I am SOOOOOO bad with money. As much money I have I always manage to finish it. I am buying things that are unnecessary. I don’t know. As much I cut backs on my money from shopping… my money is never enough. I don’t know how my money can finish as quickly as a hungry cat gobbling its’ food. Recently, I think I may have just bordering Uni friends feelings of annoyance (I soooooo sorry girls). My mom is going to cut my allowances as dad is cutting hers. So far I do have money but I promise someone to go somewhere already. I am feeling thorn apart from keeping the money so my mom could lessen her burden or keeping a promise.
Friends <3
I have many friends. From BFF, B Friends, school friends, the list can go on. Recently… many of them are having problems…. Being me I feel I am ‘oblige’ to help them. I am willing to help them… and I want to help them…. But I don’t know how or if I could help them. Sometimes I think I am helping them.. but instead making it worse.
I also wondered sometimes if I am being a good friend to my friend. I question myself… should I keep quiet… say something… be me? Be ignorant…. Be dumb… be clueless. Be insightful.. or be anything.
Youngsters or adults.. =.= ??
Simply put, I a questioning myself if I am an adult or still a youngster? Why am I still making kiddy decisions… why I can’t be an adult…..
Recently I feel like whining about how I can’t buy a dress like my friends.. although it is perfectly normal to where what you got in the closet.. but I cant help the feelings that arise. I envy my friends… but I think somehow mom don’t understand… than I realize I am being unfair to my mom.. but still a girl will always be a girl.
These are just among the thing I constantly think. And these do not include my Uni works and so on.. hhmmm…. my life may not filled with important duties and my problem are very petty. But still these are my problems that I yet can handle properly… I guess I am still a kid at heart
